Choice and belief

Little story that strengthened my personality without me noticing it at the time

I am about ten years old, we are in a ski resort. My mother wraps me the way she thinks I need to be protected from the cold of a December month in the French Alps. Temperature can go down to -15°C / - 20°C ( 5  / -4 °F). Hood, wollen jumper, anorak; and the cold was still very intense at times. Memories of frostbites !

One day I tell to myself that I am able to not feel the cold if I decide so. I can modify this sensation of my body. I felt like experimenting something new (already !);

I am thinking "A jumper ? Why ? I can control that cold; after all, it is my body ! I am the one deciding for it" I am then totally persuaded that I do not need the jumper; I do not question one second its uselessness. So I take it off

That day was objectively pretty cold and it went wonderfully without the jumper and without anybody noticing anything !

A real beautiful experience that filled me with confidence and gave me a sense of pure will;

At the time I didn't intellectualise anything. I felt like doing it, I did indeed and found the experience absolutely great, nothing more

Decrypting a litlle bit more, I can recognise what happened

- I defined a very precised goal

- I was not bothered dealing with details as to achieve my goal

- I didn't one second question the result that I would get

- I couldn't care less about other's opinion : I never shared that experience

- I didn't juge my mum's behaviour who thought I needed a jumper. I wasn't interested. Simple constatation, we didn't have the same conclusion about my needs

- I acted

All of what was normal for me, nothing special, no feeling of doing anything but banal

The result was satisfying for me and reinforced my self confidence

Choose to go from involontary to volontary !